escaping from life

ive realized that no matter what i do, i cant help but imagine a world better then the one im living in. i dont know if i have any signs of A.D.H.D or maybe i need to be in a asylum ( thats another option ). but as of right now my life has been filled with horrible things. i didnt have a great child hood. im barley 14. i was supposed to be born on halloween day but my mother couldnt pop me out 2 hours earlier -____-. anyways i have journals among journals filled with my ideas and filled with my storys that i keep personal. but now i feel like i should show everyone what my mind is. i ESCAPE FROM LIFE when im on a trampoline i start jumping and flipping and fighting....but i feel like someone was accually there i feel like i was really inside a world within a world. as a kid i never really had alot of friends but now i do because im not a dick to everyone. but as a kid i would have imaginary friends.....my mother checked me into hospitals and stuff like that because she thaught i was going crazy....maybe she was just watching the sixth sense to much....who knows! but i feel like im accually in another world filled with excitement and adventure and i cant help but wonder.........is there really not another world with living orginisms.........i might be going crazy but as of right now.....escaping is the only option for me